NOT For Sale

God works in the most mysterious of ways. I believe that he wants what's best for me and my family. And I can with surety say that I have felt his hand in my life and most recently guiding us through this process of "moving". But it looks like we won't be moving after all. And it's OK. I feel at peace about it, and sad, all at the same time. But it has been affirmed to us that we should be living right here in Beaverton. Maybe we would have had a happy life in Forest Grove if timing would have been different...we did feel good about moving out there after all. But right now is not that time. So tonight we took our house off the market.

Life is so CRAZY sometimes!

Once our accepted offer in Forest Grove was rejected it seems that the whole moving idea kinda went out the window, but we held on, waiting for a possible buyer for our home. Last Sunday the same lookers even came twice and considered making an offer, but they really needed a master on the main for an aging mother, so they decided to make an offer on another home. It's been 7 weeks since we listed our house, which is probably not long in the world of real estate, but it feels like forever when your trying to keep a perfectly clean home with 4 kids. Yikes!

It seems we are not meant to move out of Beaverton. Sigh.

But it goes deeper than that.

Several months ago we found out some news that impacted our family in a very unexpected and wonderful way. And while I can't talk about that news, just know that it was sad and happy all at the same time. And it has been on the forefront of our minds.

So, two weeks after we put our house on the market we again got more news. Shocking news. It got us wondering if this move was even going to take place. But things were still very much up in the air, so we decided to keep our house on the market and see what happened.

All along I have been praying for God's will to be done. I have been praying for clarity. I have been praying that God would let us know what would be best for our family. And I have been praying for an open mind and for eyes to see what path we should take. And I know Matt has been prayerful about it, too.

Then  a couple of weeks ago our phone rang yet again telling us of more news. News that made it pretty clear that this move might not be such a wise thing. (It's so interesting to me that every time I prayed for clarity it was met with news that pointed us away from selling.) But we held onto our desire to sell our home. Matt and I can be stubborn. I admit it. And it's so hard when the Lord has different plans than ours! But I have to hold on to the hope that some of God's greatest gifts are those of unanswered prayers. So now we are listening. It's been really tough. I was an emotional wreck last night. Lots of tears were shed. But today I am feeling more at peace.

One thing I am sure of is that God has grander plans for our family. I know it.

Yes, we wanted to move. I wanted to have that perfect space for my salon. We wanted to move to the quiet and the beauty that is Forest Grove.

But it is not to be. And my family and what is best for my family triumphs over any personal wants I may have.

Family first. Always.

I know this hair design license won't go to waste. I love doing hair way too much! I am just going to have to use it in a different way than I had envisioned. I'm still thinking on that one...