Months ago I started having these crazy impressions that we were going to be moving. I drive myself crazy sometimes. Why in the world would we move? Such an absurd idea! Was it because I have transient blood? We moved so much while I was growing up that change has been part of my life. Usually though, I can paint a wall, put up a shelf, buy a new painting or rearrange furniture and feel relieved of my need for change. Or was I being prompted? I really didn't have a clear answer. But I was feeling very unsettled. I hate that feeling. The problem became that these feelings would not go away and became more intense. After long conversations with Matt and after much prayer we decided to sell our house.We put our house up on the market last May and had it up until the first of November. Unfortunately our Realtor was less than stellar and didn't market our house very well. Not a good situation in a tough market. Needless to say our house didn't sell. Now that was really frustrating. Really frustrating! Now what? We decided that we would wait until Spring and see how we felt then. It would be a much better time to try and sell. Well, the government then decided to extend a $6,500 tax credit to home owners who buy a new home. And we qualify for it. The rules with that are you have to be in contract by April 30th and closed by June 30th which meant that we had to put our house up on the market in January instead of March or we would miss out on the $6,500 tax credit. So, here we are, back on the market and wondering how all of this is going to play out. We also just recently found out that the builder we liked out in Forest Grove just recently started a small neighborhood in Hillsboro, just 7 minutes from Matt's work and much closer to our family in Hillsboro. We can still build the exact same house there. Now Forest Grove doesn't seem nearly as appealing, it being 20-25 minutes from Matt's work and family. Are these some new doors that have opened for us? I still don't feel like we have clear answers, but something keeps pushing us to move forward with the idea of selling our home. This moving forward with faith stuff is kinda scary. I wish I felt confident that everything was going to work out just fine, but I am filled with so much fear of the unknown. I keep struggling with the feeling that maybe I am just a little crazy and that we shouldn't be selling our house at all. But that doesn't feel right either. Why am I not trusting myself? I wish I had a crystal ball that would show me what our life would be like if we just pulled our house off the market and stayed put vs. moving to Forest Grove vs. moving to Hillsboro. Whatever we choose alters the path of each member of our family and that is scary to me. Then I wonder if Heavenly Father really cares where we live. Does it really matter? Will we be just as happy here as we would be somewhere else? And if it doesn't matter then why do I feel so unsettled here in Beaverton? We have worked hard to make our home just the way we like it. So, why this desire to move away from it all? Not to mention that we have great neighbors, great friends and a great ward family. See, I drive myself nuts! Am I way over thinking all of this? Maybe I just need to chill out and let things fall where they will. What would you do?
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I would trust your feelings. Yes, I believe Heavenly Father DOES care where you live. Maybe you're supposed to serve in a new ward...maybe one of your kids will meet their future spouse...maybe you'll meet people that will lead to some other opportunity...maybe you need to be in a certain school's boundaries. Who knows? But I tend to think those feelings of uncertainty are on purpose. I also have found (at least in my family) that I usually have those types of feelings first, before Brad. Sometimes I think women are just more in tune with things like that.
I'm excited to see how it all turns out! And it's really cool that you could get the same house in Hillsboro!
A little voice just told me to tell you that really your supposed to move to Couer D Alene and start up a nursery here.....And Rick is supposed to build your house.....I think you should pray about it:).....Seriously though, As much as we would love that, I really hope things start to fall into place for you guys and that you'll know exactly what your supposed to do..
I really don't know what to say, Tonya. I wish I had something brilliant to say. If you feel unsettled here and you feel prompted to sell then that seems to be the way you should go. I'm sure only good things are around the corner for you all.
All I have to say is that I understand everything you just said completely and have had the exact same feelings and conversations with myself...about where to live and other things. I'd be happy to do what I'm supposed to do...if I jus knew clearly what that was! We should talk some:) Good luck! We're praying for you!
i believe that Heavenly Father does care where we live but I also believe that often there is more than one good choice and He leaves that up to us. I guess it can be easy to over anaylize everything and question why...I guess if you get that strong gut pulling feeling then it can help you know. I am like Darilyn though, I really can't give you much advice or thoughts...other than to listen and feel what you need to feel. It will come to you and if it's meant for you to move you will. AND if you do...we need to keep in touch and have a great housewarming party for you if you do move!
Being a "seasoned" mover I have to say that when you have those promptings there are reasons. I always know when a move is coming. I hate the unsettling feeling that you get from the unknown but every time we move I know we are going in the right direction. The lord loves us and wants us to be happy and though he didn't send us a book or crystal ball he did give us the Holy Ghost. Always trust your gut I find that mine rarely steers me in the wrong direction. I am sad that you won't be our neighbors here in FG but I am happy that you are finding something that works for you! We love you guys!
Trust you gut. You're having these feelings for a reason. I look forward to hearing how it all unfolds. It's interesting how options have opened up in where you can build. The waiting game can be rough but well worth it in the end. Its hard sometimes to trust that things will work out but the man upstairs knows what he's doing!
Don't move.
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